Chellun sat down with a broken ankle, and in the midst of a disintegrating relationship wrote “Who Am I?” in one rambling stream of consciousness. With a couple minor word changes, Chellun’s song about facing and embracing her inner turmoil and self-discovery was complete.
lyrics
Volcano in the mountain. Lights up as the sun goes down. There’s one white building over there that lights up at 5.12pm. The moon is bright, oh the moon is full tonight. A bird just sits on that branch there. I’ve been sitting here for hours and I know how it goes. Just watching nature. It moves so slowly sometimes.
Oh the beauty in nothing yeah. Oh the magic in nothing yeah. Oh that place where there’s nothing yeah. And everything oh yeah, at the same time. It’s one of those things. It’s one of those things. It’s one of those things.
I got a plant in my room now. It’s healing and I am healing too. Now that I can’t walk. I sit and I wait. I sometimes meditate. Contemplate on, simple things yeah. The meaning of everything yeah. How I dance deep inside. What’s my song deep inside. Who am I beyond the layers and layers of things I thought I was and know I know so many are false. So many aren’t true. I am finding slowly finding. That pearl that is me, inside like when I was a child, playing in diamond halls of magic and mystery.
I’m okay now with my dark side. I’m just realising it is here. I embrace it. I feel it. I let it go. Like I let everything else go. There's no better or worse, in dark or light. One lives with the other for their whole lives. And so I find peace with that who I find deep inside.
Who am I?
I ask myself that question a thousand times a day
Who am I?
I ask myself that question in my sleep.
Dreams reveal to me, secrets that I never thought I’d find.
Secrets so dark, secrets so frightful, secrets I hide, secrets I fight with, secrets I know, they will go once I hold them all and say hello.
I can't avoid, I can't avoid, I can't avoid anymore
I can't avoid, I can't avoid and I can’t hide anymore
credits
from Who Am I ?,
track released February 14, 2019
All songs written by Alexia Chellun
Recorded by Anthony Leung at The Crypt Studio, London
Mixed and mastered by Ken Rose at MYWarpedHalo Studios, Chicago Illinois USA
Throughout her song-writing, Chellun exhibits a unique melodic pop sensibility combined with lyrical themes that examine the human race, consciousness, and awareness. She makes an unarguable point when she says “Oneness has no genre.”
A journey for the senses, the latest album from this Indonesia-based artist offers uplifting sounds and gorgeous melodies. Bandcamp New & Notable Jan 29, 2023
